That morning I stuck to my usual tasks. Woke Adelia up, got her ready for school, carried her to the bus with her walker (her walking is horrid when she first wakes up). I continue with the house work, moving furniture, cleaning, laundry and dishes. All the crap I hate to do, and requires 2 pots of coffee to continue. Then by the time i was finished I had cursed every person who lives there. Then my Monster woke up. I heave his fat butt outta bed, and boy he is on a war path. Which is funny to watch because he has this enormous head. Looks like a lollipop running down the hall.
As the day progresses so does my neck pain. Normally if I sleep wrong it fades through out the day. So what the hell? HONK, HONK! Adelia is home. I go onto the bus and carry her down the stairs, with her walker, and into the house. Now normally we get straight to homework. But momma is lacking in the grocery department, so off to the store we go.
Now for me a whopping 120 lbs. Standing at a giant 5 feet and 3 inches, I lift Adelia into her car seat, which is when I have no idea why we have a Tahoe. This vehicle is made for someone a little taller than myself. oh well, off to the store we go. Now the trick when you park there is to get a cart over to the truck and unload the kids into it, so they can annoy you through out the entire store. The excitement by now is killing me! So I grab a cart, heave Adelia out of the car seat and into the cart. Let me explain to you, that a child that wears leg braces and has almost no control over leg functioning, is like weaving metal into a basket. So after I sweat for 10 minutes trying to weave her little legs and plastic braces into the cart, while holding her above my head, can you believe the left side of my face is now numb? Along with this stupid neck pain!!! What the hell is it? My luck a clogged artery from my coffee and fried potato habits. Totally worth it though! So we go into the store, low and behold Adelia needs to use the restroom. Shoot me. Finally we get back home and I continue.
The next day we end up going camping. While Che got some sleep I loaded all of the supplies by myself in the truck. Then did the same loading and loading routine of children. I thought to myself, sleeping on a air mattress totally going to help my neck, right? HA!
Let me tell you by the time we got home and unloaded, my entire left side was numb! So off to the doctor we go.
While in the exam room, which I hate, I see enough of these rooms to last me a fucking lifetime. I am trying to think of what I do throughout the day, that would cause such a horrid pain. I came up with nothing. Either way the doctor comes in and starts asking questions. "Did you do any heavy lifting"? I reply "No". "Did you push or pull anything heavy"? again I say "No". As he is asking me these questions I find myself terrified to answer. If I answer with what my normal day consists of, he is going to tell me to stop. I can not have him say that to me, I will go ape shit on his ass. A mothers biggest fear is to be told she can no longer take care of her children, especially when the heaviest one can not and may not ever be able to do it herself. Besides its not like they will give other options. So I lie my flat ass off, and inside I am crushed. After the scan and all the mumbo jumbo. It looks like I have a pinched nerve, a sever muscle spasm from muscle fatigue. No worries though, the fix is pain pills. GREAT!!!! but I cant be asleep all freaking day. On the way home I find myself useless and sad. I have to do these things throughout the day. Not doing them is NOT an option, who else will? I cry. Im supposed to be able to take care of her forever, now what use am I to her or any of them. Someone shoot me.
Finally we pull in the drive way, and the shots they gave me have me feeling pretty good. I open the door, and the house looks like a BOMB went off. I mean shit everywhere, wrappers, toys, kids passed out on the couch. With in seconds I forgot about my neck pain, Adelia, Madisons grades, Jrs dirty diaper, my self pity and was going to murder all of them! All I can say now is "Where the Fuck are my Pain pills"?